There has been so much on my mind lately and I can’t seem to find the right words.

I miss you. I miss who you were a year ago when I met you. I don’t know how we got to be where we ended up but it kills me inside. I know that you wanted to love me, but I also know we were both too sick to see the beauty in our relationship. It was the most unhealthy 11 months of my life. I would like to say that you turned me into someone I hated but I can’t blame you. 

I’m sorry. I will always love you, and I will always wonder what might have happened if we just did not have to rush into everything. I had to say goodbye, it will never be us again. I can’t bear to see you, or hear your voice, or smell your cologne. It breaks my heart into little tiny pieces. But you need to know that I am not alone, I am not broken, I have found happiness again, and I will be forever grateful that you taught me exactly who I never want to be again.